i always thought i was mature enough to handle a relationship.

but the fact is i always think too highly of myself.

basically, what i was trying to say is,
maybe im not as mature as who i think i was.

what do we actually need to maintain a relationship?

im sure i've yet to uds and know exactly what i need to know to maintain a relationship.

but. i realli need to Thank God for letting me know this guy here. despite me being clueless of how to actually maintain a relationship when im already in one, he actually forgives me once and again when i did smth wrong. he actually let it go and not broad over it like months after months. he actually let me be myself and love me for who im.

well for me. im sucha let down. i'd disappoint him. i made him sad. i spoilt his mood.

he's like someone who deserves better than what he's having. but say im selfish. i wish he would be mine for as long as it can be. however, i'll still respect his decision no matter what happens.

and bcos of who he is, i'll try to be a better girl (better man! heard of that?) for him. Yes! only for him. i will not want to disappoint him again. i will not want to make him sad again. and i wanna make his everyday a happy day.